FATHERLY LOVE CAN BE SCARY YET FLATTERING

It was my dad whom I am afraid of. He is like Apo. He have a lot of eyes everywhere, he sees everything I do even he’s not in our house or in our province. It was on my 10th grade, my friend asked me to try smoking, and due to stupidity I tried what my friend told me to do so. After that I got addicted with smoking, then it turns out, my dad knew what I was doing. He asked me if it true, that leaves me no choice and out of fear I admitted it. I have no choice to the extent, either I’ll admit it or not, I’ll still taste the bitter sweet reality, the scolding session of my dad. So then, his hand landed on my face after scolding me, consequently I decided to move on my uncle’s house because of what my father did. It was unexpected though I understand it since I know he was just out of snap and he was controlled by his raging emotions. Then as days passed by, after a month, I went back to our house. He apologized from what he did so do I. He told me never smoke again but I couldn’t stop myself, so I did smoke over and over again. I tried my best though to quit smoking, but I guess my best wasn’t that enough.

On the same grade, when he was in Manila, it happened again. I drank with my friends that made me question myself, that days were the days where I don’t know myself, I don’t know who I am. Maybe just the problems pushed me to do such things, which I thought it will be the best way to relieve stress. Then, he found out what I did again. How come he found out such things when he’s far away from me? Yet, I was happy he can’t scold me right away since he is still in Manila. When he came home, I think he remember nothing. Yet I was really scared of him, still nothing can change the fact that he is a great dad. He is the best dad and I love him.

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